So I quit....... there is something about quitting though that feels so pathetic. I don't think one can ever be proud of quitting. At first there is a sense of relief but in all honesty it doesn't last long. Quitting also isn't in my nature in fact being insanely stubborn is what I am known for and can be one of my less than desirable traits that has also been past down to my youngest daughter.
My epiphany came when I saw a post selling bikini's it jolted me back out of the land of denial that I was happily ( or so I thought) vacationing and rudely awakened me to my reality. That was my goal my whole damn year was supposed to be about being healthy and feeling confident at the beach this Summer. To enjoy some fun in the sun and be able to catch up with my ever energetic children.I realized then that I have not only let myself down but everyone else and that is NOT on. I have organized care for my kids and while a gym membership is still out of my financial means I am determined to not let that get in my way. I will walk up and down Gulf Harbour Drive until my legs won't move!!!!!!
I don't think I will be ready for my after shoot for Treasures in December but I want to have the knowledge that I at least tried.
I would also like to apologize to my friend Kirstyn our yummy Inidian movie nights will have to end ( well the Indian parts ) and swapped to something more healthy...... Although I know we will both miss Mr yummy Indian man that serves us. Sacrifices must be made.
So I pledge today I will NOT buy another item of size 18 clothing !!!!!!!!!!!!! Running out of clothes and the potential shame of going out in my pj's will force me to swap the pie for some celary. Time to get real, get with it and get out from under the bed.
Hurrah !!!!!!!
J xx
